“Did you ever have sex with them?” Thomas was shocked at his own bluntness.
Jacob faced him straight on. “No.” A small grin slipped across his lips and Thomas’s insides tingled with the familiar feeling of attraction and lust. “I was known as the ‘safe guy’, so I had a lot of girlfriends, but I had a lot of heartbreaks as well.”
“How did you finally overcome your fear?” Thomas found this extremely interesting. His family had several gay members in it. They were, and had always been, very accepting of him. His first real fear had come when he left for boot camp. His father had talked with him for weeks about things he would have to do and hide.
“I was actually at a party. You know those wonderful drinking games people play? One had me locked in a closet with a guy and a girl. The guy was totally bombed. I was trying to do things with the girl and he suddenly stared rubbing all over me. It was the most erotic thing that had ever occurred in my life…up to that point, of course.” Jacob gave a quick wink and Thomas’s manhood was ready to salute. That’s when I realized if I was going to truly be happy, I had to stop hiding who I was, especially from myself.”
Thomas let the story roll over him as he imagined being in the closet with Jacob.
“Well?”
“What?” Thomas cleared his throat once more and swallowed.
Jacob laughed. “What about you? You ever been with a girl?”
“No. I was never attracted to any.” Thomas thought about all the girls who wanted to date him, but he never felt right about leading them on.
“So who was your first?”
“He was a GI from Bragg. It was a one-night stand deal.”
Jacob cringed. “That had to be rough.”
“Not really. It was all so exciting and new. I was okay with the one-night stand. I had too many things to work out and I didn’t need the pressures of a relationship.” Thomas looked out across the bay again. Night had settled in and the San Diego lights were winking at him. “So now what?”